Last night at college and more people knowing

Tonight I attended college for the last of the sessions in this term.
It has been a thoroughly enjoyable course and I have learned a lot and grown as a result of it. It felt quite an emotional jolt that it has come to an end. I feel that I have grown close to everyone on the course. It’s a real shame, but half of the people on this first module will not be taking it further. I will miss the ones that won’t be coming back.
It was also sad in that this was the last ever lesson our tutor will teach as he is retiring. We all signed a card for him and shared how we felt about him. He said, and I genuinely think he meant it, that our group and the dynamic of it was different to the norm. He said we had bonded in a way that he hasn’t seen before. I have to agree with him.
In fact most members of the group felt the same
After the session we all went for a quick drink at the pub and we exchanged phone numbers and email addresses. As people left we hugged and said goodbye which was a little sad.
That said I have a made a few friends I am seeing over the summer to share a coffee with and a night organised with a couple of the girls for a curry. Yum Yum.
On the way into work today I had a text from our MD asking if it was ok to talk to another Director about my transition before I went out with him tomorrow. I was out of the office until very late in the day today so I called him to say if he felt that was the right thing to do then I was ok with it. I am not quite sure why he felt this was the best approach but I hope it was in a positive way.
I had planned to tell him tomorrow myself as we are spending the day together travelling to a couple of meetings but I guess it still gives me the opportunity to discuss things with him, and at least he will be prepared to some degree.
I think it will be an interesting day.
Wednesday I will tell our Financial Director.
I am feeling nervous and relaxed at the same time. It’s strange really but I am still worried as to how things will go at work but am glad I have set the ship sailing. I guess all I can do now is turn the rudder and steer the ship as best I can. If the waves and storms are to strong then maybe my course will alter but at least I am sailing, have left port and am on my way to new life.
My wife is also planning to tell some of her friends this weekend. She is really nervous and is feeling the strain of this. I know she shouldn’t be but I can understand how she feels. So I think I am going to have to get to the schools very soon as once this wider circle of friends know the news will spread like wildfire.
After speaking to my Mum tonight it would seem that my Brother has told a lot of his friends and his wife’s family also.
I think the number of people that know now is growing exponentially. I honestly don’t care. In fact it is great that I don’t have to keep telling people.
For me I have a couple of close people to tell and then handle coming out to the masses internally and externally at work.
Then I can sail free.
This is what I am trying to think of.